Drained :p

I have felt so drained today. I don't know what my deal is. Winter of course doesn't help the situation. I can't wait till spring and summer. I'm more active those months. I love to work outside and fix up my gardens. It will be here for you know it. In the mean time just got to take in the cold. Its been rainy today. Makes me want to sleep. Of course with 3 kids I can't do that.

I'm sitting here watching The Notebook. I love that movie. I've seen it over 50 times I'm sure. Its my favorite movie. Its the perfect love story. The old lady on the movie (Alli as an older woman) reminds me of my granny. Every time I look at her I see granny. I miss her so much. I wish she could have lived long enough to meet Chris and my boys. She would have loved them so much. I'm thankful for the time that I did have with her. She died when I was at the age of 21. I would go to her house 3 times a wk to take care of her and my mom would go the other days. Her health go bad the last 3 yrs of her life. I really didn't know what I was gonna do without her. Luckily at the time my fiance helped me through it. I was very blessed to have him at that moment in my life, cause without him at that time in my life I would have acted out foolishly.


Well Christmas is almost here. This month has flown by. Its kinda sad because I love all my decorations. I don't won't to take them down. My house seems so naked without them. The kids are excited about Santa. Christopher asks me everyday how many days are left. Gonna be different this Christmas. We are having Christmas at moms. Usually it was be a my grandmothers (bea) but she passed away about a 2 months ago. So this yr will be the 1st yr that we're having at moms. David will be in Pennsylvania with his Girlfriend which will be different cause he's always here. Rosa is coming down thankfully. She has a great job at the bank. So we all know that the bank has awesome hrs. She is off on Christmas eve and back monday. So I'm glad she is able to come. My aunt and uncle won't be there because she has to work not to mention some drama with that situation which I won't go into. At this time in our lives family needs to stick together. At the end of the day those are truly the only people that will be there for you.

I'm looking forward to spending the day with Mom and Adriana tomorrow shopping in Murfreesboro. We need more days out like this. I'm gonna help her finish up her Christmas shopping. Its gonna be so busy. The last weekend of the holiday. People are gonna be crazy and impatient. Its a good thing I 'm crazy to, cause otherwise I couldn't put up with it, lol.

Goodnight