Oh my word!!!!!!!

I so need a break from the kids. I'm so not the stay at home mom type but yet I keep popping them out, lol. I love my kids more than anything else in this world but geeeez I need a break.I wish I was somewhere tropical with a fancy drink with an umbrella in it. The smell of the ocean in the air and the hot sun on my face. Oh wouldn't that be awesome. If my mother in law didn't work and could watch them I would go somewhere at least part time. I don't at all trust day cares because if something happened to my child, whoever would get the wrath of Amanda. Hopefully one day I will be able to. My husband is old fashioned so he feels the woman should stay home and the man should work. I get there are huge benefits by staying at home. I seriously just need more me time. I was trying for my 4th because my mind felt like I needed to be pregnant. Well I don't need to be. I'm not sure if I still want to be. I've got down to the weight I was when I got married and thats awesome. I got down that low after Caleb to. Us women know how our bodies get after having a baby. I've always been into fitness and now I can look in the mirror and think OH YEAH, lol:)Yes that sounds conceited but I deserve that moment because its hard work to lose. My husband doesn't really care if I have extra weight but I do it for me. Obesity runs in my family and I REFUSE to get that way. There is so many benefits with working out. I find that if I go a few days without it I become sluggish and depressed like. Also if you have a temper like mine exercise will help with that. There has been times where I could stick my fist through a wall and my foot which by the way I have, lol.. I was so mad that day ,but thats another story. Its a total stress kill..

Gone for now!!!!!!!!