It's been a long while but here I go:)

Chloe is now 5 months old and she's healthy and happy:) November 5th 2010 I looked in the mirror and hated what I saw. Coming from a background of always working out I notice the small things on my body thats wrong. I know I had a baby and for some reason I feel like my body should go back the way it should, ha!!! I know better since this is my 4th child. I remember the lose it app. on my Ipod that I used before. It was easy and you saw results. I've always loved to exercise but I had got out of the habit because of being pregnant. I was at risk for early delivery. So I needed to take it easy when I could. When I started Lose it on November 5th 2010 I was feeling great about it. I started exercising again and was feeling great. Exercising is a major stress reliever for me. I'm a happier person when I exercise. Now Its a habit again:) I take a body break on Sundays (even though that drives me crazy:)Today when I weighed in I've lost 30 POUNDS in 3 months. How awesome is that!!! All I'm doing is eating 80% of the time healthy and I exercise 6 days a wk. I make sure I get good calorie intake for the day mainly because I breastfeed and that is my #1 priority. So far breastfeeding is successful and so is the weight loss.

I can now look in the mirror and I feel great. I still have things I need to work on but who doesn't. I want to set an example for my children. I put my kids in sports because its good for them. Kids these days sit around and do nothing while eating junk food. There are over weight kids out there and they shouldn't be. There are over weight adults out there and they shouldn't be. I understand some have health issues which makes it harder. That just means you need to work harder. You may not be able to exercise for whatever reason. People can however control what they put in their mouths. I control my weight. The weight doesn't control me:)

I want to lose 7 more lbs and then I plan to maintain. I've got a few of my friends on lose it trying and striving to do better and they are. That makes me so happy:) I'm not downing those around me who are over weight. I just want them to feel great about themselves because everyone deserves to feel great and live healthy lives.

Okay enough writing..until next time..

6 wks Preggo and Venting

MAN ALIVE!! I feel like Crap. I so can not wait for this sickness to be over with it. I'm not ready for any of this. I don't really have a choice in the matter do I. I wish I was still In Gatlinburg taking a nap beside the fireplace. That moment felt perfect. I felt at peace with everything. I'm just not in the best of moods today. I wish there was someone that I was really close to and that gave good advice. Christian or not christian its hard to find that someone to feel close too to really have that honesty. With past friendships that turned out to be a joke Its hard for me to truly trust a person. I normally expect that with non Christians but I've also learned that even Christians can be the same way. Its extremely annoying. Do you ever find yourself around a bunch of people but at the same time feel lonely? I would love to move far away and start a life somewhere else. You have some people who call themselves Christians but allow their children to dress revealing things. I'm just sick of it. I don't ever try to act like the holy than thou person. I admit I had many flaws that I work on. See that's the thing I actually try to WORK ON THEM. Aren't older Christians supposed to be setting an example for the younger Christians and teaching them. I have yet seen that. I've even had a so called christian to block me on facebook. I've never said the first negative thing to her ever. The problem is, is that she probably don't won't other christians seeing her sinful life or wearing inappropriate things. She used to be this sweet person but now she's sour. I don't know what the deal is. Then later I realized she blocked a lot of christians. They would even have bible study's at their home but no more. I just don't get it. What is happening to some people? I am thankful for the handful of christians that I do have in my life. I feel at this time In my life I'm needing guidance and support from others but I'm not getting it. Being a christian in this pathetic world I need those things to keep me sane. How can you help people when you block them out of your lives. How pathetic to block someone on facebook. I could understand someone using foul language or something. Maybe its hormones Idk. All I know is at this moment I'm SICK OF IT. Just plain sick of it. We used to get invited to others homes for dinner. Seems like the more kids you have the more you end up staying at home. I actually had a woman to invite me over to her home for supper with other christians. She actually had the nerve to tell me that kids weren't allowed at the dinner. That it was for grow ups. Are you kidding me??? I told her then I guess it looks like we won't be there. This is my family. If you don't except my family then you won't have me that's for sure. I know she didn't mean to be rude but man that was the rudest thing anyone has ever said to me in awhile. I understand that adults like to have alone time without kids but man the way she said it was awful. Not to mention she said this last minute. Well enough venting for now. I just hope and pray that I can look past those people and grow as a christian and hope that they will get their lives straight.

I am grateful for the close christian bond I do have with some. I just wish it was with all.

First prenatal checkup

I had my first doctor appointment Monday with Dr. Murphy. I really looked forward to seeing him because he such a good doctor. I enjoyed having him as my doctor with Cason. I don't see how anyone could say otherwise. If they do its probably them I'm sure. When I got there I went on in which is surprising cause usually I have to wait. The nurse took me back and checked my weight which by the way was awesome. I actually weigh less this time around than when I got pregnant with Cason. The nurse asked me did I do a at home preg. test or did I go to the health department. I told her I took 4 tests at home. She smiled big, lol. What can I say, that's how I roll:)Everything went well. Dr. Murphy told me to eat more calories cause at the time I wasn't. I moved my calorie intake up to 300 more calories. He did an ultrasound on me which I've never had to have that early, but if he wants to do it Why not. All you could see of course at the time was the sack which was still cool to see. I go back in 4 wks to see the baby. He has a 3d ultrasound machine now which I'm very excited about. I'm looking forward to the big ultrasound to see if its a girl or boy. I'm almost sure its a boy but then again it may be a surprising baby girl. I can't believe we will be a family of 6. We seriously need to get our heads examined, lol. The nausea started today (great). Such a downfall with pregnancy. I've tried everything and nothing helps. Just gotta suck it up for several wks. Hopefully it will only be a few wks. Exhaustion has picked up drastically. I have to push myself to get up and exercise then I'm yawning during the exercise. Normally I go to bed between 11pm and 12. Now I'm struggling to keep my eyes open around 7pm. Come on second trimester :)

I'm hoping I won't be too sick when Chris and I go to Gatlinburg. We won't be gone long. We are leaving Fri. and coming back Sun. afternoon. It will be nice to get away and get some peace and quiet for a change.Oh I can't wait. Tammy and Ma will be staying at our house to watch the boys. Gonna be a good weekend. We don't plan on doing much. All I want to do is cuddle up in front of the fireplace :)

PREGNANT WITH BABY #4

Okay so I my period was late 2 days. I went to Walgreens after Church to get some groceries and picked up a test. I was sure I wasn't pregnant because I've been avoiding trying. I just wanted to get the thought out of my head and move on. Well the positive was as plain as day. Then I took the other one and it showed up quick. I decided a few months ago I was gonna wait till the end of the yr. Well it didn't end up that way. I actually cried when I saw that it was positive. I don't feel ready but I guess I better get ready. The good thing about it is my body is ready for it ,its just my mind that isn't. Anyways whether I'm ready or not God has given me this gift and it is a true blessing.

I haven't got sick yet but I'm sure Mr. sickness is peeking around the corner at me ready to pounce. So far the only signs I've had is missed period and exhaustion. Its funny how pregnancy can be so different from your other pregnancies. Would be nice for the sickness to not happen but that's just wishful thinking. I go to Dr. Murphy Monday for my 1st Checkup. I love him as my doctor. I have great intuition about people and its all good with him. I don't however like the lab work. I'm aware I don't have a sexual transmitted disease but I guess they don't. I just hate to take a test for something I know I don't have. I called to see if I had to have it and they said yes (whatever).

I'm hoping for a healthy, good and fit pregnancy. I workout 5-6 days a wk and I eat healthy 80% of the times. So as long as I stick to it I'll do good. Just gotta be careful when I get to the late 2nd and 3rd trimester because of my history of premature births. I have no idea why they come early. Even if I'm on bed rest they come. I just hope if this baby does come early that he or she is healthy just like my others. One thing good about being pregnant during the summer I can do water aerobics in my pool which is easy on the body.

This will be my last pregnancy. No I'm not getting fixed. I do however plan on taking that 5 yr. Birth Control. I know a girl who has that and its worked really well with her. I research it before I decide on that. Even if this next one is a boy NO MORE. I do want a girl but I've got used to having all boys that it really doesn't matter. I will be really surprised if they say ITS A GIRL!!!!!!!!Which by the way I would like to see Chris's face (priceless). Either way God will give me what he wants me to have and that's fine by me.


I really like this whole blogging thing. I could care less if people read it or not its a comfort thing for me to type things down. My sister Rosa used to do this and I never understood why but now I do. I'm looking forward to blogging about my pregnancy.

The Holidays:)

Well Christmas was wonderful. The kids were so excited when they saw that Santa left them all kinds goodies. We later went to my moms to open gifts and to enjoy a yummy meal. Its the first time we've ever had it at moms because we usually have it at my grandmothers. She Passed a way a couple of months ago so this yr. We started a new tradition of having it at moms. We all enjoyed ourselves. I'm looking forward to many many more christmas's there. Later on that Evening we went to Tammy's and Ma's. We had a good time there enjoy each others company and having another good meal. I'm happy to say that I didn't gain ANY weight during the holidays. I'm so excited to be in a size 5/6 pants. I don't won't to get any smaller, just need to maintain now.

I took down all my Christmas decorations 2 days after Christmas. Usually its the day after but I had plans that day. Got my home cleaned up from top till bottom. I love that when people come over they are shocked that my house is so clean because I have 3 boys. A woman's home reflects upon her. I make my kids clean up there own room except Cason. He's too little to understand :) Christopher was cleaning when he was 2. I think parents go wrong when they are constantly picking up after their kids. A child needs to learn how to pick up after her or himself and not rely mommy to do it all the time.

I'm looking forward for what 2010 has in store for me. I hope and pray that it is a wonderful year. We are going to the Sebourns for a New Years Eve party. I love being around my Christian Family:) I know that I need to surround myself with Godly people or I could fall short. Like the bible says Bad Company Corrupts Good Morals. Its funny sometimes I feels as if the old Amanda is having war with the Christian Amanda. Does that make sense? I hope at all times the Christian Amanda comes out but sometimes my old ways peek out. I hope to always do right and if not I hope to make things right if I do fall short. I know we all will fall short in life but we need to have the strength to pull ourselves up and look to God to help us.

I can't wait till Summer. I'm so looking forward to soaking up the sun in my pool. WE got a pool last yr and didn't get to enjoy it as long. It took the guys 2 wks to build the deck. Afterwards we were able to enjoy it on the really hot days. Our Summer was different. It was the coolest Summer I've think we've had in a long time. Hopefully this Summer it will be really hot. I don't like cold water. The pool temp is best at 80 degrees. I'm hoping to get a solar cover to keep the pool warm. My husbands tells me I'm spoiled but yet he keeps on spoiling me :) I have everything here I could ever want and my husband is the reason. I'm so thankful for a husband who provides for us. Most of all I'm thankful for the blessings the Lord has given us.

Drained :p

I have felt so drained today. I don't know what my deal is. Winter of course doesn't help the situation. I can't wait till spring and summer. I'm more active those months. I love to work outside and fix up my gardens. It will be here for you know it. In the mean time just got to take in the cold. Its been rainy today. Makes me want to sleep. Of course with 3 kids I can't do that.

I'm sitting here watching The Notebook. I love that movie. I've seen it over 50 times I'm sure. Its my favorite movie. Its the perfect love story. The old lady on the movie (Alli as an older woman) reminds me of my granny. Every time I look at her I see granny. I miss her so much. I wish she could have lived long enough to meet Chris and my boys. She would have loved them so much. I'm thankful for the time that I did have with her. She died when I was at the age of 21. I would go to her house 3 times a wk to take care of her and my mom would go the other days. Her health go bad the last 3 yrs of her life. I really didn't know what I was gonna do without her. Luckily at the time my fiance helped me through it. I was very blessed to have him at that moment in my life, cause without him at that time in my life I would have acted out foolishly.


Well Christmas is almost here. This month has flown by. Its kinda sad because I love all my decorations. I don't won't to take them down. My house seems so naked without them. The kids are excited about Santa. Christopher asks me everyday how many days are left. Gonna be different this Christmas. We are having Christmas at moms. Usually it was be a my grandmothers (bea) but she passed away about a 2 months ago. So this yr will be the 1st yr that we're having at moms. David will be in Pennsylvania with his Girlfriend which will be different cause he's always here. Rosa is coming down thankfully. She has a great job at the bank. So we all know that the bank has awesome hrs. She is off on Christmas eve and back monday. So I'm glad she is able to come. My aunt and uncle won't be there because she has to work not to mention some drama with that situation which I won't go into. At this time in our lives family needs to stick together. At the end of the day those are truly the only people that will be there for you.

I'm looking forward to spending the day with Mom and Adriana tomorrow shopping in Murfreesboro. We need more days out like this. I'm gonna help her finish up her Christmas shopping. Its gonna be so busy. The last weekend of the holiday. People are gonna be crazy and impatient. Its a good thing I 'm crazy to, cause otherwise I couldn't put up with it, lol.

Goodnight

7th Wedding Anniversary

We had a really good time. We usually go out of town for a few days but my husbands schedule is hectic the rest of the month. He's working 60 hrs a wk this month. So next month we are taking a few days to ourselves. I look forward to that. We first went out to eat for breakfast. Lets just say I ate way to much that day. Then we went to Opry Mills mall. He told me either I can get a ring or a bunch of other stuff. I wanted a ring cause my engagement ring that went with my band was broke. I had the hardest time finding a ring that I liked and that was at a good price. The husband didn't care but I did. Finally did find one that I liked. We played mini golf in the mall which was really fun. It was a black light room. Chris won but I started off good though:)I want to go play again so maybe I'll beat him the next time. We went to Snoopy on Ice which was really cool. It was soooooooo cold in there. Obviously it has to be because everything is ice. It's 10 degrees, brrr. The price is kinda high but it was neat to see. Then we went and spent time at the Opryland Hotel which is beautiful. I wanted to stay there but all the rooms were taken up. Next yr I will have to call in waaaaay advance. Which is the reason, besides the hubby's wacked out work month, that we are going somewhere a few days in January. We headed back to Murfreesboro and hung around there and ate out and went back home. I had a bad headache when I go home so I turned in early. I'm so blessed to have a wonderful husband. I know I say that a lot but its so true. I see others marriages and how they are and I see mine and its wonderful. I've got a christian man who lives his life by the word of God. He is a wonderful father to his kids. We rarely ever argue and if we do its usually something not serious and its always me who fussing, lol. He rarely ever gets mad. Honestly the only time I see him mad is when he's watching the vols, Titans play or sometimes road rage:). It cracks me up. He provides for his family. We have a beautiful home because of him. I see so many men who don't provide for their families and its sad. I Timothy 5:8 - "But if any provide not for his own, especially for those of his own household, he hath denied the faith and is worse than an infidel". I pray that I continue to be a good wife to him. There is always ways for improvement and growth. I love him so much and I'm thankful everyday for him.


Its amazing how when we first knew of each other we didn't like each other to much. He thought I was mean which I was. I'm still crazy just not as crazy as I was before I became a christian, haha. I thought he looked cocky and that he was a know it all. I was right on the know it all part, lol..He's still that way:) We are so opposite in so many ways. I guess when they say that opposites attract I guess they were right.

Me asking him out on our first date was the best thing I've ever done. He's shy so I didn't see him asking me out any time soon. I'm a forward person anyways so I knew I had to do it. He's face was so red :) We fell for each other really fast. We dated for 8 months and engaged for 3 and a half months. He asked me to marry him on September 6th 2002 and we were married on December 14, 2002. Its been a wonderful 7 yrs. In those 7 yrs we were blessed with 3 healthy boys. I hope and pray that God blesses us with many more yrs to come.