6 wks Preggo and Venting

MAN ALIVE!! I feel like Crap. I so can not wait for this sickness to be over with it. I'm not ready for any of this. I don't really have a choice in the matter do I. I wish I was still In Gatlinburg taking a nap beside the fireplace. That moment felt perfect. I felt at peace with everything. I'm just not in the best of moods today. I wish there was someone that I was really close to and that gave good advice. Christian or not christian its hard to find that someone to feel close too to really have that honesty. With past friendships that turned out to be a joke Its hard for me to truly trust a person. I normally expect that with non Christians but I've also learned that even Christians can be the same way. Its extremely annoying. Do you ever find yourself around a bunch of people but at the same time feel lonely? I would love to move far away and start a life somewhere else. You have some people who call themselves Christians but allow their children to dress revealing things. I'm just sick of it. I don't ever try to act like the holy than thou person. I admit I had many flaws that I work on. See that's the thing I actually try to WORK ON THEM. Aren't older Christians supposed to be setting an example for the younger Christians and teaching them. I have yet seen that. I've even had a so called christian to block me on facebook. I've never said the first negative thing to her ever. The problem is, is that she probably don't won't other christians seeing her sinful life or wearing inappropriate things. She used to be this sweet person but now she's sour. I don't know what the deal is. Then later I realized she blocked a lot of christians. They would even have bible study's at their home but no more. I just don't get it. What is happening to some people? I am thankful for the handful of christians that I do have in my life. I feel at this time In my life I'm needing guidance and support from others but I'm not getting it. Being a christian in this pathetic world I need those things to keep me sane. How can you help people when you block them out of your lives. How pathetic to block someone on facebook. I could understand someone using foul language or something. Maybe its hormones Idk. All I know is at this moment I'm SICK OF IT. Just plain sick of it. We used to get invited to others homes for dinner. Seems like the more kids you have the more you end up staying at home. I actually had a woman to invite me over to her home for supper with other christians. She actually had the nerve to tell me that kids weren't allowed at the dinner. That it was for grow ups. Are you kidding me??? I told her then I guess it looks like we won't be there. This is my family. If you don't except my family then you won't have me that's for sure. I know she didn't mean to be rude but man that was the rudest thing anyone has ever said to me in awhile. I understand that adults like to have alone time without kids but man the way she said it was awful. Not to mention she said this last minute. Well enough venting for now. I just hope and pray that I can look past those people and grow as a christian and hope that they will get their lives straight.

I am grateful for the close christian bond I do have with some. I just wish it was with all.